am physically having headache which becomes more and more progressive. But, it's somewhat a problem i need to surmount and get above of it if i'm to become a doctor. As life as a houseman ain't going down well for me if im having enough vigour to get through the torturous stint in doing my housemanship. Having not enough sleep is the least of my problem i think.
So fast making the decision which decides and defines the next 40 years of yours? you asked. 
yes, the decision is largely made, but, just got bumped over some mental hiccups , which i think, is much needed for me to make it a point to know deeper about my job will-be.
Ok..
i bet, there must be some craziness have sneaked into my head and flourished and 'puff', and there i was, stranded in the midst of dilemma. Doing geology or medicine? Going to Canada or remaining in Malaysia and it's perfectness? What-if's and how-about's overwhelmed my head. I was jammed. Literally. 
Like a baby scrambling and groping in the darkness for something he recognised. May be, the warmness he feels to the touch of his mother's bony and gnarled fingers. 
Should my aptitude as medical-practitioner-to-be be appraised, i think, i should disclose that who am i at the first place. 


Ernie Loo. A person with shallow mind and susceptible and vulnerable heart of which concussion or even touch is prohibited. 
Always struggle in confidence crisis. Having short-term memories (in other words, forgetful). And that's all which makes up ernie.

-to be continued..