Today, a day spent in the library together with my cousin, a day trying to wake my rusty brain that had not been working for too long up. This is so painful that you come to realize that your brain aint working when you are confronting a stakes of handouts that are constitutes of words of information that tries to enrich ur knowledge. It's even more painful when you realize that you cannot get a firm hold on everything u thought u have devoured, especially on academics. the feeling that you start to think and consider yourself as nothing but a dump. It feels so, wrong..

As we know, there lies the notable realm that separates the phase of secondary school life and life being a college student. There are certain changes that are inevitable for you to make; to configure yourself in order to make it through all the thorns and loops that lay along the way you re heading. Sometimes, we just cannot remain unchanged if we are to survive the big waves in life. College life denotes the essential of maturity; which counts the most when you are trying to solve problem, and also avoid problem from coming. And now this is what im going for. The street-wisdom, the tactfulness in handling speech and relationship. It takes wisdom and intelligence. The way of college students pick up knowledge is totally far and different from spoon-feeding. You have to put an effort to acquire the knowledge you need to maintain the grades. It's no easy job. Feeling hopeless to come to realize that how shallow we are.

Another thing is, attitude. Or behavior. in terms of this, i already got someone to look up to; she is a package of perfection regarding her way of facing the world. She permeates an amazing aura that make her gleam and shine in the middle of the crowd. When she stood out, you can assert that she is somebody; her behavior tells that. Her way of handling relationships and getting the best of it are just simply enticing. in hindsight i pledge to be like her, or just nearer to being in a same league with her.

i know, i still need alot of life experience to season me and morph me into a true adult. i still need alot of guides so that i can grope my way out of all doubts and uncertainties; there are still alot of failures that i have to undergo before i can feel the taste of true success...