Decision

Decision.
Making a decision is many times harder than i could ever imagine. Especially in things associated with my future and my career. 
Ever since i was given the right to make my own decision, ranging from trivia to important things that could change my life, I suck in making decision. I always hesitate, even though the thing that keeps plying into my mind is just a matter of unimportant thing like whether to eat an ice-cream, whether to take a nap, etc..
In accordance to Chinese physiognomy（面相学）, the person who is born with big ears (note that the size of our ears are evaluated by ratio of ears to face) is shrewd in making wise decision, and the converse is also true. Unluckily, I am exactly the opposite one.
Now, it's time for me decide which road i should choose. Myriad of opinions comes pouring in, even more than i could swallow and digest. Worse still, Every opinion seems making perfect sense to me. Some are supportive in backing me up and encouraging to me so that i should choose this road, and others just oppose it with lot of underpinning facts that seem too true to be taken into accounts. While i am still groping for a best answer, autocracy slowly makes an appearance in my life...
It comes vaguely in indistinct figure, i still cannot assure that whether that is autocracy or whatsoever. 


Frankly, half of me craves for freedom in making my decision without any influence from others. But this region in my heart also fear that there may be possibility that i am making a wrong decision because i am shallow; Another half of me craves for others' opinions in terms of the decision im about to make as they may look things in a wider view and angle, but, this part of me, is also worried that the decision i make is not based on what i really wants in the bottom of my heart and is not proportional to my aptitude that god grants to me. 


My intention, others' opinions, both are equally important but, i should always look inside myself and listen to the voice within before looking out for others' opinions on this stuff. Because, the one who has to live with the decision made, is not anyone else who is now too keen to offer his opinion, but, myself.

i suppose that rabbit are the best decision makers in the world XD